Sunday, November 22, 2020

Been away from here again...

I used to enjoy my blog posts...

Looking back it was a form of boring the guys in The Naafi orThe  Malcolm Club ( long gone institutions), sharing without the need to actually chat in person to somebody!! Then your mates just looked at you and said 'aye', on here anybody who could be arsed just scroll past the crap and look at the pics!!

Pretty same on Facebook, which has taken over from this little blog...( here FACEBOOK ) πŸ˜€

I pretty religiously put up logs of my walking, follow loads of strange people in wierd and wonderful groups, such as lost shopping trolleys, The Dull Club, Steps we love, park benches, weather around the world right now...football obviously! Pared down the crap over the years, it works for me..

Then there's Twitter! Been a trifle stressed time on there!!  

Politically I'm disctinctly Centre Left, and right now its hard to really come out and say "I'll Vote For Him/Her"..but that's bye the bye, Twitter has gone from a fairly relaxed chatty newsy place to a something resembling The Spanish Inquisition, complete with Heritcal Burnings!!  Again, I've just spent time paring down who, and what I follow...There seems to be none of that middle ground, eg if you have a tendancy to Boris, you must be a raving Trumpite as well, and if you think Biden is right, you're a raving Corbynista, of which I'm neither...I suppose being of the Harold Wilson, Jim Callaghan generation of Labour, well, bring their kind back.

I do find it hard to socialise.

In The RAF it was easy, walk into a Naafi anywhere in the world and you already had a connection, something to chat about, a commonality of cause, be you an airframe fitter or (as I was) a "blanket stacker"...logistics, supply etc... Now, Ive been here for heading towards 20 years(!!!) and I see people I know, but with a couple of exceptions, still haven't a clue as to their job, profession, history etc...in our local Club, there's always the same group in there when I go in, who've been that same group long before me and know each other intimately, I'm always the outsider, and I admit I sit by myself and tend to only add the occasional comment to the conversations - often because its a very parochial and insular conversation !!  Right now Social Distancing suits me!!

The other half of this blog, Suzie, has had a much harder time of it than me. Made redundant just before lockdown, actually on her way to an interview when they pulled the plug as such. A couple of interviews since, always pleasant reviews, but no job. Now no dole, only available for 6 months, so we are relying on my pensions...which I spend at a rapid rate.πŸ˜“. 

We've spent more time enclosed together in our little nest than ever - I resented the intrusion for a while - missed my solitary life of seeing Suzie off to work, breakfast, walk, or domestics, or visit Mother, then home after a pint at the above club, sit in big chair, sport on TV nap, prepare evening tea, welcome home the worker...bed!! But we've worked it out - I get up early, she gets up late  :)


Mother has spent nigh on 2/3rds of a year stuck in her little flat, no social life at all - at least we've been out shopping, holiday in Norfolk, gone to pubs etc..she's had nowt, with the odd exception of me twice a week, a visit from Janice for a week or so, odd phone cll from Grandchildren and her friends, who have been the worst at this!!

A rare lunch out...keeping her safe

So, as this second lockdown comes to an end, a vaccine is in sight, what of our future?  

Me...going to walk from Westminster to Tower Hill eating and drinking it all back in again...Pepys, Boswell & Johnson, Shardlake...πŸš‚πŸΊπŸ±

Suzie, dancing. Lots and lots and lots of dancing!!πŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒπŸ’ƒ

Mother, tea, sandwiches and bingo with her friends, before its too late.  She's 93 next moth.



Hightlight of past 8 months...Suzie's birthday feast :)


Sunday, March 22, 2020

Dystopia 2020


This lady is my Mum...

She is 92, lives alone and generally gets on with life.
She has vascular dementia, poor mobility (trundles along with a three wheeled walker ) and her eyes are rubbish, macular disease means her focus is pretty naff.

Today is Mother's Day, and like loads of other sons and daughters we had plans...which have been blown away!!

Here is my personal dilemma...

She can't do the normal simple domestic things in life, wash her clothes, change her bed, shop...which hasn't been a problem, because I've been able to be her hands and legs and eyes and help her with all this and keep her life as normal as possible...

Now...
all advice is to keep away!!  

How can I?  

All her contact with her friends has gone, she doesn't see anyone around her, she has difficulty ( in fact she has given up) changing channels on her TV remote.

I have to go at least once a week to do her chores, take her food.

I broke my ankle 2 years ago and we used the wonderful TESCO delivery service - we have ONE booked next Sunday with ASDA, that's it, none available at all after that, so I have to shop for her, (all this effort by supermarkets for an elderly hour is great, but she can't get there and wouldn't be able to see or carry the shopping when she does)...

...do I knock at her door, drop the shopping and run!!  

Guilt

So as it stands, I will be the only person she will see...so if she does catch COVID-19 it'll be down to me.  

I'm trying to be as anti-social as possible...not even hugging my wife.  We sort of decided that Suzie would be the shopper for us all to keep another layer of distance between Mother and this virus...but GUILT - how can I allow any possible guilt to move away from me and lay upon her?

Help 

I live a distance of around an hour away from my mother - I stress about who I go to for help and advice - Drs and everyone concerned with the care sector are going to be overwhelmed and in all honesty, at the moment Mother is fine, AS LONG AS I CAN KEEP changing her bed, wash her clothes and make sure she has food.


What do I do? Continue to stew in this pot of despair? 
It won't help her, or me, or us, if I get depressed and end up being no help at all !

There is one lady who has offered to help, but we come back to that issue of guilt...can I let her become part of that chain?

So...

TodayI am going over and cooking her a Mother's Day meal of her favourite fish, (Pan Fired Sea Bass with a garlic and lemon sauce, baby potatoes and broad beans...).

I will keep away - the 2 metre social distancing, no hugs or kisses, we have our sanitiser gel, and I will open windows...

and then I will go over once a week, shop, wash and change her bed, and keep her sane!!

And I won't be the only son/daughter/carer who has these issues...

RANT...

I'm doing this and then look at the pictures of all those selfish idiots at the seaside, shopping markets...

STOP IT FFS

Thursday, January 03, 2019

Welcome 2019...

63 this year, same age as Dad was when he had his stroke...

One is supposed to look forward in life, learn from the past and use that to move on in . positive manner...well, learning from 2018 I mustn't
 a) walk in a jaunty manner...
b) think about life too much, it changes all too rapidly πŸ˜ͺ


Last post was quite optimistic...going to post my fishing and walking 'adventures', then it changed...

Weymouth is known to me in far better detail than I'd ever wish it be!! 

BUT

Daughter is healthier, grandchildren are safer...

SO, lets reset and 'go again'...

Welcome 2019...bring it on :)






Saturday, July 07, 2018

Sunny Saturday...



After a lapse of a ‘few’ years, one has rejoined this club...doesn’t the pic look evil!!  ( passport one).  

It’s just tooooo hot to get started, and there’s a football match on today, which, I’m not getting all gung ho about...always expect the worst since 1996πŸ˜₯. But, I will get the kit out and start putting it in order, one will need hooks, weights and floats at the least...


Friday, July 06, 2018

Walking #2...Wild Hill

Another breathtakingly clear day in Hertfordshire!!

In keeping with me new 'resolution', off I went to complete the second short walk on The Hertfordshire Walker list...Camfield Place Loop

Camfield Place was/is the home of Barbara Cartland and her sons.   As much as I like reading, never read, or even felt the need to, any of her stuff.  Obviously had a market and well done to her.

I/we have walked this before, a while ago now, but it has had a bit added, and a bit more for me 'cos I missed a gate and wandered around a field for a while!!

Wore my new boots for the first time 'proper'...very supportive and felt comfortable.  Will have no problems rambling along with these on.  Ankle felt okay, if anything a tad more relaxed.  Went swimming yesterday, and carried on with the PT ( tiptoes on the one ankle..), seems slightly better reach; still hurts and I can't do with my BA the range with my 'good' one.

 Top of Woodman carpark...heading off over style...
 Hot horses...



 Scorchio...☀️☀️
 and dry...



 Walked past here...so walked back!
 How to confuse this old man...!!





 and back...hope there's some ale inside!!

 So...how is IT?
 Quite good...new boots doing their work...


Beer was cool and tasty, had a chat with an old boy and his dog...walks from Brookmans Park and gets community bus back after a beer or two...love it. 

And talking of Brookmans Park, thats where walk #3 starts...:)

Walking...Hertfordshire Walks #1...North Mymms Loop

So, decided to record them here as well as on my Facebook page...

Added two links to the blog....Facebook and an interactive map of all the Hertfordshire Walks...

Walk #1 North Mymms Loop

Stunningly bright day ( again!).  We have walked this little loop a few times, 

 And I ws ALL excited about the prospect of actually being away from life for a bit.

 Sigh..only walked half a mile and it wasn't ankle moaning, it was me back...
 Absolutely love going up little tracks...it was one like this ( and I'm going to have to go back to Christmas Common to finish the walk...) that I did The Deed  on in January!!  


 Hills of Hertfordshire...

 Then I looked down...penguin walking!!


Past the A1M, then acrosss the burnt field - in me new glasses...
 And, how was IT?

 Fine...just needed cooling down!



Wasn't a long walk, will try to do over 3 miles next time..

Reaction, ankle was fine, my toe joints hurt more!!  Heel feels hollow and numb...
Onwards and upwards...

Friday, June 29, 2018

Woooo

Well, 5 months since The BA!

How's it going...true answer is good days, bad days.  Its totally unforgiving.  Just been on holiday ( if you wish to be bored silly, pics here ), drove to San Mamete on Lago Lugano, didn't elevate ankle for 3 days, didn't do any stretches, couldn't walk by day 3:((

It WAS good though...


Been to Physiotherapy twice now, target right now is to do this...





could take a while!!

Anyway, pre break, I did a lot of walking, using a few different resources as guides...

books :-

1) AA 50 Walks in Hertfordshire
2) Hertfordshire Chain Walks

and various on line resource...

4) Brookmans Park Walks...( more on this later)

When I retired I started on The AA book, and have managed over half of them.  Some I decide were too short to 'Bother with' - that has now changed!!

Found the chain walks in the Oxfam shop and decided to walk them in order..especially as a lot of them I could by train from Hertford North!  Up to number 8..

Most of them are recorded on Facebook :- 


Lastly!!  For January 18 see Chiltern above...


Anyway...

Now I need to get going again, BUT slowly slowly...so, one has a plan!!

#4 above has morphed into its own little universe, and very good it is too!  Lots of love and commitment to sharing the lush Hertfordshire countryside ( and pubs 🍻πŸ₯‚) has gone into this by the two owners...and one can only profusely thank them!  

Right, plan, to start on Number 1 (North Mimms Loop) and work through them.  Using Train when possible...This was in fact the first we ever did!!

One will keep you informed.



Wednesday, March 28, 2018

#Recovery!!

So, this time 10 weeks ago I was being wheeled around Stoke Mandiville A & E...
First time in A & E, first break of anything, first enforced stay in a hospital, first operation under general anaesthetic ...

10 weeks later, here I am in a pub having a reasonably good local Pilsner( Rivertown Brewery AKA McMullens...which surprised me as I'm not an aficionado of their ales...)

My first time flying solo out of the house!!  The grand J & D dropped me off, then 3 months of hair chopped off at Micks The Barbers, 

a hobble along to Costa, ( LattΓ© and a cheese & ham toastie), then here...plan is to hobble from here to taxi rank around the corner and wend the way home.

So, how have i arrived here?  

2 weeks hard caste, nearly 4 weeks fibre cast - all NWB and Air boot since then, PWB.  Still another 3 weeks boot to go till I'm free of their support and shoes AND being able to drive!!



The frustrations... hopping like a flamingo everywhere... chest hurting as if I've been up and down Whitby's steps a couple of times, in a gale!! 

The sense of missing a whole season.  Looking out of the window it's at times been like that image from the H G Wells "Time Traveller" film where the images all blur by. Snow, ice , rain, sun, shadows on me wardrobes lengenthing.


Not being able 'to do anything', Mother feeling abandoned, Suzie balancing work/home/domestics - I was supposed to be taking all that pressure off her...


The atrophication of my leg, no muscle, skin falling off, the smell!! 

The good bits... my first hobble with the airboot and THE FOOT touching the floor; the first night in bed without a caste on, really not enough of a wordsmith to describe it, just good...

The 'all of a sudden' eureka moment when I could stand without a crutch or the faithfull zimmer, sort of wobble across the room...


My target...to walk to club and a have beer by end of April :)